The biggest fear of a movie maker is whether or not the audience will enjoy the film. I mean, I got a gut feeling on whether or not this joke hits hard, or whether this scene delivers the emotions intended. But that's just me. When other people laugh at the jokes, then I know I've accomplished my goal. It's different than being a stand-up comedian: you tell a joke and get an immediate response. As a movie maker, you work on a joke for several months, editing it to get the timing just right. Sometimes I would get the gut feeling while I'm editing that I hit gold. Other times I wouldn't be sure.
We've already had two premieres, so I kinda knew what reactions to expect on this third showing. At least I thought I knew.
After the movie ended, people came up to me and congratulated me on the movie, asking me if I was planning to go to film school, etc. The younger kids raved about the movie. I had made Hero Camp just for them. My peers enjoyed it, giving me thoughtful critique (I think). Timmy just hid in the corner like he always does at the premieres.
My goal even at a younger age was to always make my next movie better than the last. I don't want to tread over old ground with the next movie and make it just as exciting as Ultrakids 4. I've honestly been my movie's biggest critic, always pushing for more emotion, more comedy. And I'm proud of Ultrakids 4. In my opinion, it was ten times better than Ultrakids 3, which was ten times better than Ultrakids 2.
This may be the last Ultrakids. I said that before Ultrakids 3. But I will continue making movies for the glory of God because that's a passion He's given me. That passion for filmmaking inside of me had never been more realized during the production of Ultrakids 4, when I spent nearly 50 hours working on the fireball sequence at the end of the movie (which lasted a minute and a half). But it felt like nothing to me because I knew it was going to look awesome.
God I ask for Your guidance. I don't know what the future holds, and it's probably none of my business anyways. All I want to do is to walk with You, making movies that glorify Your name, using this passion You've given me to the fullest extent. You know my future, You planned every day out before I was born. To put my own plan in front of Yours would be suicide. God, protect me from my pride. Always remind me of the trials I overcame with Your help while making the Ultrakids movies. You are holy God. You are almighty. To You belongs all praise and worship.